I was having a pretty decent day yesterday when something happened and bam! (no, I wasn’t hit by a bus) but the thoughts in my head took over. And I allowed these negative thoughts to run loose. As I sat in my room trying to deal with all this junk running in my head, I realized I needed to run to Jesus right then or I may fall really low. So I shut off every distraction around me and opened my Bible.
Right then I felt God asking me ‘What do you really feel? Won’t you write them down?’. So I took my journal and I wrote down my thoughts. They looked so ugly on the pages of my journal. I started writing…’I feel like a loser. I feel like a nobody. I feel like a creep. I feel dumb, stupid and afraid. I feel…’ The words and names spoken over me through the course of my life…I drift away as my tears just flow. That’s when I see the open pages of my Bible…staring back at me are these very words from Isaiah 62 already underlined and highlighted.
The nations will see your vindication, and all kings your glory;
you will be called by a new name that the mouth of the Lord will bestow.
You will be a crown of splendour in the Lord’s hand, a royal diadem in the hand of your God.
No longer will they call you Deserted, or name your land Desolate.
But you will be called Hephzibah (My Delight is in Her), and your land Beulah;
for the Lord will take delight in you, and your land will be married.
As a young man marries a young woman, so will your Builder marry you;
as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride, so will your God rejoice over you.
The Lord has made proclamation to the ends of the earth:
“Say to Daughter Zion, ‘See, your Savior comes!
See, his reward is with him, and his recompense accompanies him.’”
They will be called the Holy People, the Redeemed of the Lord;
and you will be called Sought After, the City No Longer Deserted.
“You will be called by a new name that the mouth of the Lord will bestow.”
Tears begin to flow again as this new revelation dawns on me. I am not those things I wrote down. Those are lies. Lies from the pit of Hell. I draw a line next to my ugly, pathetic thoughts and write in red ‘God says:…’.
I am Hephzibah, the one God greatly delights in. I am His bride. I am redeemed. I am sought after. I am not deserted or forsaken or rejected. I am a daughter. My saviour is the King Of Kings. I am loved and I am married to the King. I am a crown of splendour in God’s hand. A royal diadem in my God’s hand.
I hope none of you ever feels the way I did, but I have a feeling we all have these really sad days. Since I want you to have a weapon in hand which is the word of God (Ice-cream, chocolate and social media are not effective weapons against the enemy!), I have compiled all the things God has spoken over you to trump the lies the enemy speaks over you. You can download it here.
Also, I love the Message version of this passage.
You’ll get a brand-new name straight from the mouth of God.
You’ll be a stunning crown in the palm of God’s hand, a jeweled gold cup held high in the hand of your God. No more will anyone call you Rejected, and your country will no more be called Ruined. You’ll be called Hephzibah (My Delight), and your land Beulah (Married), Because God delights in you and your land will be like a wedding celebration.
For as a young man marries his virgin bride, so your builder marries you,
And as a bridegroom is happy in his bride, so your God is happy with you.
Yes! God has broadcast to all the world: “Tell daughter Zion, ‘Look! Your Savior comes, Ready to do what he said he’d do, prepared to complete what he promised.’”
Zion will be called new names: Holy People, God-Redeemed, Sought-Out, City-Not-Forsaken.
Isaiah 62:2-5, 11-12