It stirs in my heart like a wave trying to find its way to the shore. It’s big and it feels like it could topple me over. And I do not want it to. I want to stand on the shore without being consumed by this wave. But it is stronger than me and I cannot control it. It comes crashing on me and I’m hit. Hit by the high tides of hope. I stand and take it all in. I start to believe in the possibility of these ashes turning into gold. I start to hope again. I remember each time I was overcome by this wave. What could it be that leaves me hoping for extraordinary things? What could it be that fights for a permanent place in my heart? Like an anchor that wants to dock on the shores of my heart, it holds me captive and breathes life into my soul. I have become a prisoner to it. This hope. It unravels me and changes me. This hope unlocks the door to the dreams in my heart. ‘Look beyond‘ it says. ‘You will live again‘ it promises. My eyes can now see things that aren’t there. It is beautiful but impossible. I hold this vision with a shaky hand. What if it slips away from my hand? ‘It can never fall. It is steadfast. It is a rock.’ I hear my heart whisper. Like medicine for my soul, it revives me. I start to breathe again. My heart beats again. This is resurrection. I see the stone being rolled away. I see the people staring in disbelief. I see Him. And I can’t take my eyes away. He has captured me. He knew my name. I can’t conform to this place anymore. I have risen with Him. Risen into the heavenly places and seated with Him.
I see it now. It looks different from above. It is larger. It wants to crash on everyone and engulf them within its power but they, like me, resist it. They believe the lie that hoping leads to disappointment. I close my eyes and speak over every heart that is afraid to hope:
‘May hope take you captive, child. Let it resurrect your dying heart and may you live again.‘
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. Hebrews 6:19
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. 1 Peter 1:3
Return to your fortress, you prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you. Zechariah 9:12